My last post said it had been a really long time since my last post, but this time I can say that with much more confidence, it has been 1786 days since I last posted. Wow almost 1800 days, think about that, that’s almost 5 years. 5 years of life, of joy, of pain, good days, and dark days. I look back on this time and see many things that God has done in those years and it excites me for the future that he has, for the promise of his grace and his promise to finish a good work.

The last post in 2010 talked about direction and purpose, the pursuing of God’s plan for life. There are days that I feel not much has happened or that God has not done much to help me clarify His direction and purpose for my life.  Over the past few months I have with a greater purpose made myself take and make opportunities to slow down and think about a simpler life, not a life that is not filled with purpose but a simpler life where my relationship with God and the pursuing of his calling on my life are a singular focus. One that doesn’t think of all the ways doing this could derail the “normal comfortable life” but how it could make “normal life” so much more fulfilling.  It is amazing what happens when you just sit on the porch and watch the trains go by and think about the big dreams that God has filled your soul with. 

The crazy thing about God is he hasn’t changed a single dream that he has given me since high school. He has however refined the dreams and definitely refined me. The thing about time is that you learn a lot as time passes, you realize how inadequate you are, yet how adequate you are with God. I think it is the inadequacy that I feel that slows me down some days. I become so consumed in how I will accomplish something that I forget that God is at work to move my life towards the things he has called me to be. For me 5 years sounds like an eternity but as I look back it has been a blink. I have learned and experienced more than I could have imagined in this time and the whole time God has been at work moving towards where he has me today for a very specific purpose.

There are some big things in the works for the next year that I am beyond excited about. There will definitely be more about this in future ramblings. As a follower of Christ not everything we are called to do makes sense and even a small change in the normal of life can feel like a huge leap. I plan on writing a lot more in the coming months for a couple of reasons. 1. I enjoy it. 2. Accountability, when I write things down it not only makes me say “I wrote it down I have to do it”, it also lets those reading it keep me focused on the things I say I will do.  Actually I think there are 3 reasons, I want to be able to look back and read the struggles and the good times so that in the end I can see that it all had a purpose. Even if things fail from my perspective I know that in the end, I will see where God has worked and how he has redeemed.

Gods plan for us is usually where our passions, our purpose, and our capabilities intersect. Bob Goff